thats why i need to meet jason!! dont you see?!?! for my story arc!! i envision my memoir as being like "the remains of the day" where it takes place over a week or two and each new chapter is the butler looking back and meditating on something but meanwhile each day that passes he's getting closer to this event where he will drive and meet some maid or whatever that he used to work with, and it ends with him meeting her. only unlike the remains of the day, my memoir is not going to have such a poignant old-manish flavour but is going to be weird and wonderful like it's authour and it's not going to end with the prospect of romance, but probably, what i predict, with the little snow white sylph that was jason turning into a commonplace meathead or somesuch, because that's the way of the world and any adherence to ideals has no place in it (that hard won morrissey wisdom). i mean, of course i dont have to meet him, i could just make up the ending, but i think it would help if real life could inform my memoir in some way. and i really dont see what's wrong with it. writers are always bugging people for interviews. my interest is merely scientific and fits in with my new philosophy of "do what i want and tell everyone everything". as an artist i should never feel shame about anything.
but you know, funnily enough now that i have contrived a way in which it might be possible to meet him, im sort of over it. i think my real problem was with the idea of things being consigned to the past, unbreachable, and once i think maybe they're not, i sort of stopping caring. it's feeling that my whims and fancies are being opposed that i have a problem with.
by the way, werent you the one who told me to go to neils house just to "at least check it out"?!?