I keep trying.I feel like I`ve tried everything.This pill and that pill.Psychs and therapists.Everything short of ECT.One of my psychs once recommended it because he said "we`ve tried everything".See I told you I`ve tried everything.I didn`t take that recommendation though because ECT can really mess with your memory.I just get so freaking tired of everything being so hard.I can`t function like a normal adult human being.I`m really,really afraid for my future.I want to sort myself out and be able to take care of myself.I don`t think that`s asking much from life.I would like to be mainly happy and have some sort of stability.I`m afraid of what`s going to happen to me if this never get`s better. I don`t want to end up in some institution someday.
I often think about it.....Right now it feels like it would solve all of my problems.I wouldn`t have to worry about my future.No one would have to worry about me and my problems anymore.Maybe all the pain would be over and I would be in a better place.But that`s typical just me thinking about me and my problems.I love my family so much and I wonder how much it would hurt them.Maybe it would for a little while but then they wouldn`t have to worry about me and what`s going to happen to me anymore.Living like this really hurts at the moment.I don`t want to be sad and hurt anymore.
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Everyday is silent and grey~Morrissey~
I often think about it.....Right now it feels like it would solve all of my problems.I wouldn`t have to worry about my future.No one would have to worry about me and my problems anymore.Maybe all the pain would be over and I would be in a better place.But that`s typical just me thinking about me and my problems.I love my family so much and I wonder how much it would hurt them.Maybe it would for a little while but then they wouldn`t have to worry about me and what`s going to happen to me anymore.Living like this really hurts at the moment.I don`t want to be sad and hurt anymore.
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Everyday is silent and grey~Morrissey~