I was thinking about how long I`ve been this way.Depressed I mean.It has been a while.I`ve been better and I`ve been worse.When it was really bad I used to pray for death.I just wanted to be put out of my misery.When my depression and ocd first surfaced I learned how to use self injury as a coping mechanism.I would hurt myself and would feel better for a while.When I first started I would use my nails.I then progressed to other methods like broken glass and finally razor blades.I really hate that I need to hurt myself to get by in this life.I really am ashamed of this.Not enough to stop it though.
It seems like I`ve been on every depression med there is and they don`t seem to help that much.At least they help me sleep which I could never do without chemical help.I crave sleep.Some days I wish I could sleep forever.I really do sometimes.It`s been going on for a long time now.
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And When I`m Lying In My Bed I Think About Life And I Think About Death And Neither One Particularly Appeal To Me
~ The Smiths~
It seems like I`ve been on every depression med there is and they don`t seem to help that much.At least they help me sleep which I could never do without chemical help.I crave sleep.Some days I wish I could sleep forever.I really do sometimes.It`s been going on for a long time now.
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And When I`m Lying In My Bed I Think About Life And I Think About Death And Neither One Particularly Appeal To Me
~ The Smiths~
