Holding Me Down

I can`t sleep again.I am physically and mentally exhausted,I am so frustrated with myself.I feel this horrible anxiety sitting on my chest.All I want to do is sleep like a normal person.I am so tired of this.I don`t know how much more of this I can take.I want to scream. I want to release this thing that`s inside of me.The horrible ,awful thing inside that makes me feel this.I can`t do what I usually do because it`s too risky right now.I want it so bad though.I could hurt myself somewhere that`s hidden .I really need that relaese.The anxiety feels so heavy.It`s holding my down and won`t let me go."Leave me alone" I want to scream.It`s never far away.I just want it to leave me alone.I`m so tired please let me go.