Hopeless,Useless,Loser

Another year has begun and here we still are.The meds have been upped and here we are.Maybe I should give the higher dose a chance to kick in.I feel like deep,deep down in my heart I have given up.I`ve given up the chance to have a somewhat normal life.I will never have the kids the partner,husband,wife.I guess that`s what you get when you`ve never tried because you`re so afraid of getting hurt or rejected.I`ve also never tried because I`ve never felt good enough for anyone.Why try if you think no one will like you .It`s lonely here and it`s all my fault that I am here. I just feel like it`s all so hopeless.I`ve tried this med and that pill .I`ve tried therapy.I`m still f****ing here.What the f do I need to do?I`m a freaking mess.My life has been wasted because of this.I`ve scarred my body because of this.I feel like there`s no hope for me anymore.I`m scared. I don`t know what to do anymore.

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Tibby...

It's okay to be frightened because life is scary. It's okay you've got scars. You fight a battle everyday. You are still here because you're winning. You don't need to have a life partner, husband, wife, or kids to feel whole. Live for yourself. It's never too late, so don't feel that you've wasted time. I've known you on and off this site for a long time now. You are a sweet, sweet lady with a pure and golden heart. If someone doesn't like you, it's their loss. I'd be willing to bet that you'd find many people out there, like myself, who'd embrace you if you'd give it a chance. Also, please remember you are not alone in your sadness. You're certainly not walking alone. Don't give up. It's easier said than done, I know, but please try to see the beauty that is inside of you. That makes you who you are.

Love and peace to you, Tibbs.
 
hand in glove;bt5207 said:
Tibby...

It's okay to be frightened because life is scary. It's okay you've got scars. You fight a battle everyday. You are still here because you're winning. You don't need to have a life partner, husband, wife, or kids to feel whole. Live for yourself. It's never too late, so don't feel that you've wasted time. I've known you on and off this site for a long time now. You are a sweet, sweet lady with a pure and golden heart. If someone doesn't like you, it's their loss. I'd be willing to bet that you'd find many people out there, like myself, who'd embrace you if you'd give it a chance. Also, please remember you are not alone in your sadness. You're certainly not walking alone. Don't give up. It's easier said than done, I know, but please try to see the beauty that is inside of you. That makes you who you are.

Love and peace to you, Tibbs.


Thanks so much for your very kind and sweet comments HIG.You are right I am still here.I guess that counts as trying. :) Just thank you again for writing what you wrote to me.It means a great deal to me.

Your friend,Tibbs

Tibbs
 

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