I Lost Myself

I guess I`ve been having a tough time of it lately.Earlier this week I had to go the emergency room again.I was having an allergic reaction to one of my meds.So now I have to go off of this medication.That one had replaced the lithium which I had to go off because of it`s unwanted side effects. It`s been really difficult and I am tired. I am tired of failing.

Things have also been emotionally/mentally difficult for me.I try to positive and keep going but sometimes it`s just so hard.It`s hard to be positive and keep smiling when this just hurts so much.I want so much to be happy and content.I don`t know why things have been so hard lately.These years that I have dealt with my mental illness have never been easy but lately it has been getting more and more difficult.I just want to feel better.I`m so sick of feeling so sad,so worried,so tired most of the time.It`s hard to remember myself before all of this.

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You're still in there!
I know what you mean about getting worn down from it all.
You're dealing with perhaps one of the most vague areas of modern medicine. All trial and error with each individual, every time.
It can take ages to find the right diagnosis and another age to find the correct medication.
I am so sorry that you're having to go through this.
I want you to be freed from it and for you to feel whole again.
If you ever need to talk or if there's ever anything I can do to help, please get in touch.
Sending love your way...
Charlie
 
I have to echo what Charlie said....

Sending a posse of gay unicorns your way to cheer you up,

S.
 
My Only Weakness;bt4458 said:
You're still in there!
I know what you mean about getting worn down from it all.
You're dealing with perhaps one of the most vague areas of modern medicine. All trial and error with each individual, every time.
It can take ages to find the right diagnosis and another age to find the correct medication.
I am so sorry that you're having to go through this.
I want you to be freed from it and for you to feel whole again.
If you ever need to talk or if there's ever anything I can do to help, please get in touch.
Sending love your way...
Charlie

Thanks so much Charlie.

I was really so glad to read that you've been feeling so much better.You so much deserve it.You've always been so kind and supportive of me here and I really appreciate that.

I want to be free of this.I want to go out and live and enjoy life.I guess that's why I keep trying.Thank you again for your always kind and encouraging words.

Sending Love your way too

Tibbs
 
scumbag;bt4460 said:
I have to echo what Charlie said....

Sending a posse of gay unicorns your way to cheer you up,

S.

Hey S.
Thanks so much for the posse of gay unicorns.They are awesome and they really did cheer me up. :) :)
 

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