So here I am It` s 1:50 in the morning.I`m wide awake.It`s my day to be up.I have a weird sleeping schedule.I only sleep every other day.I wish I could sleep like a normal person.My sister told me you need to_ (fill in the blanks) like a normal person.I told her that ship sailed long ago.
Right now I totally feel like cutting myself or burning myself.I don`t know what I`m going to do when I leave here.I have to do it sometimes it`s the only way I have peace sometimes.I know that sounds odd.I guess that`s also why I wish I could sleep more.I usually cut or hurt myself late at night.Maybe if I slept more I wouldn`t feel the need to do that.I just need to rest sometimes you know.My brain just won`t let me do it.If I didn`t take my meds I would never sleep at all.I`ve gone up to two days without sleep it just feels so awful.Sometimes on the days I can`t sleep I lie awake staring at the ceiling just trying to turn off my thoughts.It` just horrible.
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Lying There And Staring At The Ceiling Waiting For A Sleepy Feeling
~The Beatles~
Right now I totally feel like cutting myself or burning myself.I don`t know what I`m going to do when I leave here.I have to do it sometimes it`s the only way I have peace sometimes.I know that sounds odd.I guess that`s also why I wish I could sleep more.I usually cut or hurt myself late at night.Maybe if I slept more I wouldn`t feel the need to do that.I just need to rest sometimes you know.My brain just won`t let me do it.If I didn`t take my meds I would never sleep at all.I`ve gone up to two days without sleep it just feels so awful.Sometimes on the days I can`t sleep I lie awake staring at the ceiling just trying to turn off my thoughts.It` just horrible.
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Lying There And Staring At The Ceiling Waiting For A Sleepy Feeling
~The Beatles~