I was sitting here with my head in my hands thinking about how to start this entry.When I`m in one of these states sometimes my brain refuses to work.
I feel so useless and worthless.My body,my heart,my soul ache.My body actually hurts.I could barely get out of bed today.I finally got up just to take a shower and then felt so tired that I wanted to go right back to bed.I just feel this overwhelming sense of sadness.I feel like I`m in the dark right now and the light doesn`t touch me. I can`t sleep.I sleep too much.Tired,tired,tired all the time.
Sometimes it`s sadness I feel, sometimes I feel nothing at all.I feel numb,frozen.Nothing makes me laugh,nothing makes me cry.Sometimes everything makes me cry.Sometimes it hurts so much to be alive and stuck in the darkness.
I want to get better,be better. I really do.
I feel so useless and worthless.My body,my heart,my soul ache.My body actually hurts.I could barely get out of bed today.I finally got up just to take a shower and then felt so tired that I wanted to go right back to bed.I just feel this overwhelming sense of sadness.I feel like I`m in the dark right now and the light doesn`t touch me. I can`t sleep.I sleep too much.Tired,tired,tired all the time.
Sometimes it`s sadness I feel, sometimes I feel nothing at all.I feel numb,frozen.Nothing makes me laugh,nothing makes me cry.Sometimes everything makes me cry.Sometimes it hurts so much to be alive and stuck in the darkness.
I want to get better,be better. I really do.