After many,many months of abstaining I failed at something once again.I turned to the razor again.I guess I took the easy way out.Instead of trying to deal with pain inside I hurt myself on the outside.The feelings I feel inside are more painful than the wounds I inflict on myself on the outside.Sometimes I feel like I can`t feel anything anymore.... pleasure,happiness,pain,sadness.I don`t know what feels worse feeling like you are in the darkest place in the world or feeling numb and feeling nothing at all.
At times I feel like I am just sleepwalking through life.Not really participating or able to experience life.I don`t like feeling this way at all but I really don`t know how to change my situation.Maybe this new med combination will help.I really don`t know right.All I know is that I am so,very sorry for messing up again.
At times I feel like I am just sleepwalking through life.Not really participating or able to experience life.I don`t like feeling this way at all but I really don`t know how to change my situation.Maybe this new med combination will help.I really don`t know right.All I know is that I am so,very sorry for messing up again.