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I feel like I`m sinking.My depression is taking over.I can barely get out of bed.And the thing is I don`t really want to.I`m down in the deep dark pit.The meds aren`t helping.My former psych once suggested ect ...maybe I should have taken him up on it.The thing that scared me about it was memory loss but now I think whatever.All I know is that I am exhausted and I feel so completely alone. Then I get frustrated by being inside this body.I just couldn`t stand the feeling for one more minute so I punched and slammed walls with my hands until I felt better.I just want to scream sometimes so loud.I want to hurt myself untill all the ugliness goes away and spills out of me.I wish I wasn`t me, I wish I wasn`t me.
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I feel like I`m sinking.My depression is taking over.I can barely get out of bed.And the thing is I don`t really want to.I`m down in the deep dark pit.The meds aren`t helping.My former psych once suggested ect ...maybe I should have taken him up on it.The thing that scared me about it was memory loss but now I think whatever.All I know is that I am exhausted and I feel so completely alone. Then I get frustrated by being inside this body.I just couldn`t stand the feeling for one more minute so I punched and slammed walls with my hands until I felt better.I just want to scream sometimes so loud.I want to hurt myself untill all the ugliness goes away and spills out of me.I wish I wasn`t me, I wish I wasn`t me.
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