I never said that, read back. What I said is that unfortunately, that's just the way it is. You said that you think it's fine to call to people out, which I know that you have done in the past, but if you are gonna do that, you should also be able to take a little bit of criticism, which I don't really feel that I was criticizing you personally in this case, but whatever. You seem to enjoy confrontation, and I'm not talking about this thread, but "others" in the past, and when someone confronts you with something in their reply, your defensiveness kicks into overdrive.
Well we do agree that unfortunately, that's just the way it is... as is the case with many things.
Yes, I have confronted people I found to be the most offensive, and also one who was threatening violence at a show in my hometown... I can let that go - its done. At the time I was angry and defensive. When a very large person physically threatens you for absolutely no reason other than you have not been on the whole tour and you are on the rail, defensiveness tends to happen.
As for your analysis of my psychological and emotional makeup, thanks for the insight - I do not disagree with you. Unfortunately, I am probably a bit too old to be waiting out on concrete for extended periods of time and after a few days of this, my weakest links start to bend and disintegrate - my worst traits tend to come out as I am often sick and always tired after these shows.
But I like to think of life as a journey where most of us are learning from experiences and striving to better ourselves. I am aware that I get confrontational and defensive when I feel wronged after such an ordeal to see Morrissey, you are right and I am sure I can do more to exercise awareness and restraint when these things arise. I will try.
As ugly as it has gotten, I tend to think that the people on line do have something in common and I can compare it to some kind of war veterans (of life and line.) There is (at the very least) a respect for one anothers sensitivity and taste in music, and shared recognition of whatever it is that draws us to Morrissey. I can let things go, and I can take criticism. I do voice my opinion and oftentimes I am defensive after these situations we endure to see Morrissey - as I am sure many are. But in a way I am glad I speak my mind because it is better than letting the frustration and anger boil under the surface - and it also exposes my psychological tendencies - which it seems I need to live out once in a while if I am going to have a good look at and understanding of them - which is the only way I have ever really been able to change myself... by living it out and having a good look.
I think you are right... and I am not ashamed about my defensive nature, I can only say with awareness perhaps I can change it. I would, however, be ashamed if I were repressive, stagnant, and unable to grow/change.
I wish everyone the best of times seeing Morrissey... and I feel absolutely no shame about defending my spot on line or talking back to those who threaten me. Perhaps there are better ways to go about those things... I will try to find out.
Thanks again Sharron for your psychological analysis.