I feel like I am not living but just existing.
I feel so lonely sometimes.This illness has made me a worthless,nothing.I feel as if I lived my life just staring out the window watching the world go by.I`ve watched people living out their lives while I hid inside.
I`ve always lived inside my head....maybe too much.I have a hard time talking about how I feel inside to other people even in my own family.My mom always asks me how I`m doing.I just always say "I`m okay".Anyway these things are much easier for me to write down instead of saying out loud. I suppose that`s the reason I used to self injure so much.It was letting out all those feelings that were trapped inside of me.I guess it`s not good to keep all of that inside.
I hate what I`ve become.I sometimes don`t remember what I was like before I became ill.From what I`ve read and and heard this illness is for life and there`s no getting around it.I just don`t want to feel this way forever.
I feel so lonely sometimes.This illness has made me a worthless,nothing.I feel as if I lived my life just staring out the window watching the world go by.I`ve watched people living out their lives while I hid inside.
I`ve always lived inside my head....maybe too much.I have a hard time talking about how I feel inside to other people even in my own family.My mom always asks me how I`m doing.I just always say "I`m okay".Anyway these things are much easier for me to write down instead of saying out loud. I suppose that`s the reason I used to self injure so much.It was letting out all those feelings that were trapped inside of me.I guess it`s not good to keep all of that inside.
I hate what I`ve become.I sometimes don`t remember what I was like before I became ill.From what I`ve read and and heard this illness is for life and there`s no getting around it.I just don`t want to feel this way forever.