My first was Palladium 21st may,
I didn't really have any expectations i had an ambition to at least make sure he found out i exist.
I was so over excited and nervous, after all the time watching vids and drooling at others pics/reports and wondering if my time would ever come,
My friends and i managed to get FRONT ROW tickets, (and as anyone who was there knows the FRONT row, basically butts up against the stage, so when you stnad it is about chest height and you can lean right over..*screams)
It was very surreal to me, moz walked out and i rememeber cheering but i had trouble taking it in i just could not believe that he was INCHES away from me for REAL!!!! (i've since had a friend tell me that she was a bit worried as i spent the first song or so looking around at the crowd and at the floor and just looking lost, i think i was in shock!!)
the time flew by, i managed to stop shaking after a few songs.. and i just danced myself silly, got some GREAT eye contact... and sweat dripped on me,
and when he reached for my hand in HSIN
I nearly died, the whole world seemed to stop, he looked me right in the eye smiled that sexy sexy deep smile and grabbed my hand, i didnt squeeze too much as he had a plaster round it, but Moz gripped my hand so hard, and that is i believe the only reason i did not slide to the floor in a faint, everything was black all i could see/hear/ be aware off was Moz looking at me and holding me.. unfortunatly it was soon over as our hands were engulfed by lots of other grasping sweaty palms, *eugh* so i tried to pull my hand away, Moz resisted for a sec but then he must've seen my disgusted face and he let go..
I can still feel the pressure of his hand gripping mine, everytime i hear HSIN (even without thinking of it).
Words can't explain how the whole thing felt, I was so dazed afterwards that i just walked about mutely, and when he came out of the stage door and gave me a direct eye contact smile again, my legs gave out, gosh knows how i walked back to my hotel, but i do remember having an argument about which song it was when he held my hand, LOL
I spent the next day in tears... (and i mean in TEARS, sobbed my heart out at paddington and all the way home).